Monday, January 01, 2007
yes, it is year o7 here in japan.
me, my mother and step-father went to the temple and wished on the shrines, and gods there when midnight came. my little sister had a little tantrum, and did not come with us, but maybe she was just too lazy to come.
i wished for... good health, good fortune and luck for the family, and protection for my loved ones. i also wished that it would be a good year, and i can achieve my goals in the future,
and to make improvements, and some changes in my lifestyle.
i get mood swings a lot, and bend some rules that i made...
i also decided to make a new blog... because this blog is getting bigger, and to start new things...
i think leaving or forgetting the past helps, sometimes.
my biological father called today, but i was quite stubborn at first, and i only talked to him for a short time.
i celebrated christmas eve with the family. we ordered some food, and i also helped my mother in the kitchen. we made spaghetti, filipino-style.
ordered pizza and lasagnia, bought some cake, azuki sweets, tamagoyaki, oranges, champagne
and 2 cans of cocktail... guess i should put that on my new years list... stop drinking alchohol.
well, i only drink with the family and on special ocassions...
and besides, the new years list is nothing but acessory... i mean people do not actually do most of the things in the list... so sometimes it is useless...
i did make some things to do before i die list.
speaking of death, i felt a tinge of fear one time when the thought crossed my mind.
i am afraid of other peoples death, but not mine.
i used to be ready for it, and did not have fear about the subject. but now i think that, that strong thought of not being afraid, and being ready is now shaking. maybe it is because i started to have dreams and goals in life that i intend to reach...
i did most of my assignment, so i do not have a lot to worry about next week...
but i still have to study for the tests, on 27, and the test on music, to sing or to play the recorder.
i chose to sing. we are going to sing in front of the class... and i am so nervous, i do not do good in crowds, or in front of people. i hope to lose the nerves, so i need to practice more, and gain confidence.